"You panic at the weirdest times."

How unfortunately true. Sometimes you need to hear it from people you care most for it to reach you.

I got an email from a prospective supervisor abroad, and for some reason I let it rattle me. It was just a cautionary note, asking me to think if I really was ready for the kind of project I'd be involving myself in: Lots of programming (both in concept and execution) and of the type I'm not really familiar with. Here I was, the epitome of "go-aheadedness", seeming so ready to jump in the fray anytime when that little email just threw me off track. Thanks to a conversation with a couple friends in the afternoon, I thought I'd put it behind me. I was wrong. The thing kept niggling at the corner of my mind but I didn't realise just how much until I got home and dialed a long distance number.

That conversation jolted me out of my self-involved dream. I forgot that there will always be moments when I won't be sure of anything, and that I should not let them get the better of me. Right now the familiar demons are around, along with their what-ifs and niggling, irritating doubts. Moments like these, I'm at my most vulnerable. I actually get scared. Funny, for someone who's so often giving out pieces of advice, I think I should let off of that and learn to take some of my own.

And also some from other people who often see things clearer than I ever can.
Thank you.